Aaron and Ethan in their Indian costumes after school
Ethan
Ethan's picture
Aaron
Aaron's picture
I apologize in advance for the pictures being blurry. I realized later that the lens on the camera needed cleaned!
We have had a busy last few days. Saturday was Thanksgiving for my mom's family, yesterday was the 10 year anniversary celebration at our church, and today Ethan and Aaron had their Thanksgiving program and lunch at church. The boys had a blast playing with their cousins during the family get together. They didn't get their regular nap, so they ended up sleeping in until 7:40am yesterday. That was so nice for Marc and I! We had a nice time at the church celebration yesterday. How exciting to celebrate all that God has done through Northeast Community Church (NECC) the last 10 years and all that he will do moving forward. We are so blessed to call NECC our home.
When I arrived for the Thanksgiving program at the boys' school it was so nice. The boys had made place mats, their were cute name cards, and decorative framed pictures of the boys. The boys were simply adorable when the came filing in with their classmates in Indian and Pilgrim outfits. I almost cried when I saw them. However the Thanksgiving program and lunch today, lets be honest, were just plain hard! Ethan and Aaron saw me and decided not to stand with their classmates during the program itself. Ethan was fussy and they both wanted milk. The staff from the EMUC Mother's Day Out program is always so helpful, but it was hard to juggle two. The lunch was buffet style. One teacher carried Aaron while I carried Ethan and filled their plates. Ethan was being fussy so we switched midway through the line. Later another teacher was nice enough to sit with the boys while they ate so I could go back through the line and get food for myself. They weren't sure about lunch. Whenever they are out of their routine their behavior shows it. Don't get me wrong they are wonderful little boys with lovely personalities, but they are basically two and we all know how demanding that age can be. As Aaron is screaming that he wants pie and he has barely eaten anything on his plate and I give it to him so that we don't make a complete scene, I sat there thinking wow these moms and teachers must think I am a mess. At home, I am definitely much more structured but I find myself caving in those kinds of situations. As a mother you just want to do what is right for your child and their is so much pressure as you are shaping the men they will some day be. With that said, it is so hard to know the right answers. Is it really going to make that much of a difference if my child eats pie for lunch just this once, probably not. I just wish I could let go of worrying about what others think of my parenting! I end up walking away from those situations with such self doubt! To think I have been talking to Marc about whether it would ever be the right time for us to have another baby. Hmm, I think it is safe to say it would be best to wait. Marc definitely isn't ready and I suppose I am not either.
With all that I said, please don't take me the wrong way. I love being a mom and honestly I usually feel fairly confident about myself and being in my mommy skin. I take great joy in being a stay at home mom and knowing that I get to be a part of even the smallest things in my little guys' lives. Life is good and God is great. I am so very blessed and thankful!
